Saturday, January 31, 2009

Hold Me Now

It speaks to me.

Jennifer Knapp
Hold Me Now

From the glass alabaster she poured out the depth of her soul
O foot of Christ would you wait if her harlotries known?
Falls a tear to darken the dirt
Of humblest offerings to forgive the hurt
She is strong enough to stand in your love
I can hear her say....

I'm weak
I'm poor
I'm broken, Lord
But I'm yours
Hold me now, hold me now

Let he without sin cast the first stone if he will
To say that my bride isn't worth half the blood that I've spilled
Point your finger and laugh if you choose
To say my beloved is borrowed and used
She is strong enough to stand in My love
I can hear her say....

I'm weak
I'm poor
I'm broken, Lord
But I'm yours
Hold me now, hold me now

Thursday, January 22, 2009


The darkness lays around me
A blanket of cold seduction
Desperate to own me
Slowly prying my feet from the floor
Begging me to run
As if that were a purpose
A calling
Intended by nature

If my soul were ever a light
It could burn through every cell of my body
Begging me to know
That blessings are not earned
But given
And I like all others
Am not unworthy

Yet self sabotage
Is a common enemy
What good is it to know
If I don't believe
That darkness holds no power over me

Thursday, January 8, 2009

It just hurts

I'm barely existing today
As if my body occupies a different time
Another space
And I've managed to move one step forward
Just to turn around and walk 10 back

Disappointment floods me as if it were never ending
And every time it's getting harder to get off the ground
These legs are not standing
Because my mind fights
While I move farther away

I'm not sure anymore
But I have to believe
Because that's all I have left
If this is all that life will ever offer me
Than I will forever be alone and hopeless

So if no light shines at the end of my tunnel
And darkness floods my soul
With the feeling of being completely alone
I still have no choice but to believe
That He has better things for me
It's the only way I can survive

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


Once upon a time
(The only proper way to start a fairy tale)

There was a love
Larger than life
The love that only an eternal bond can create
Existing between two
And only two
Like a great secret
Kept of no selfish reason
But mearly because it could be felt
Like an earth quake
And natural disasters need no words
We just feel

And like any two lovers
They made the world so small beneath them
That it became the dirt they walked on
And the water they drank

Knowing that we bring something to the world
Good or bad or exceedingly beautiful
The love they made
Shaped the flowers
And the clouds
With the very substance of it's beauty
It's well kept secret
And strongest desire

That hearts began to mend
Mothers rekindled with children
And a love kept so separate
That of a lover or a mother
Holds so many common bonds
That we place a great deal of faith there
That for every unjust act
Somewhere people are holding hands
And love abounds greatly
A force we long to know

And that of the lovers
And that of the mothers
Is ours
Is Him
The good days
The friendly faces
The things that make life
Exceedingly beautiful