Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Tossed back and forth between my hands
I juggled the thought halfheartedly
Half keeping my distance

Partly rolling around in my brain
And mostly laying on the floor trying to breathe again

I was supposed to move on
Wake up and decide to be done
With little to no pain

This was supposed to be a minimally invasive procedure

I stayed too long...

I like pain
It's an old friend and oddly comforting like a blanket
... in reverse

And I'm pulling away
Slowly or quickly
Whichever feels right

... I'm moving on
One conscious decision at a time

There's nothing natural about this feeling

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