Blessings

I am innately selfish
Self absorbed and foolish

Blessings flow from the buildings
Finding me
Wheeling
Around in every direction
Finding me
A small reflection
Of what I still do not deserve
And still take for granted

I ran from God for so long
And He didn't need me
But He sought to make me strong
Which foolishly
I already thought I was
Selfishly
I thought I could be anything
Without Him
But He brought me
Back
He chased me as I ran
And looked at me
As I continued to look at my own feet

How little I deserve these blessing
But how abundantly they still flow
Never ceasing to amaze me
Leaving me wishing that I knew more suffering
That I may know His peace even more
That I may be a disciple